12.50 am

I've tried my best to make myself happy. Laughing. Like what I supposed to be before....

What past is past. Kan?

Tak salah untuk pura-pura bahagia supaya mudah untuk lupa segala jenis tahi yg pernah kita lalui sebelum ni kan?

You and your life. Me and my life.

1.25 am

When you are trying so hard to find your own happiness and then there's someone ruin it just. like. that.

11.49 pm

I still remember the day that I let you in. The day after I need to face a lot of shits in my life. I feel like starting to give up. Every days & nights I let my tears falling down on my cheeks. I feel like I have no chance to be happy at all.

.....and then you came. After 4 years we didn't met.

You build me up. You promised me to stay. You promised me to make me happy and helped me forget about all those shits. You calm me down. We had a deep conversation at nights. Your voice, your smile. I still remember.

You make me feel like you're the one. Eventhough my friends keep telling me rumors, telling me that you're a bad boy, asked me to not getting too attache with you. But i choosed to not care.

.......until the day you told me you're leaving. The day I think what my friends said were true. I still remember that night where we're crying together. Getting so emotional. I still remember.

And I wonder, do you feel the same?

I miss you...... and I'm still hoping that we're still together trying to achieve what we've dream before. I hope you read this. Lol naahh....

7.52 pm

Sampai satu tahap dalam hidup, rasa macam dah malas nak hidup kalau semua orang sekeliling kau jenis yang tak pernah hargai jasa kau.

Haah kau kan tunggul?

10.22 pm

Harapnya apa aku rancang lepas bebas je dari spm, menjadi. Untuk aku. Untuk diri aku.

Untuk Mia yang baru.

11.23 pm

Still remember that night I once told you that I've no sister and I've nobody to share my problems with.

And then you be like "ehhhh saya ada ni kt sini" sambil lambai sengih sengih kt screen.

But then..... you're the one who left.

11.23 pm

Still remember that night I once told you that I've no sister and I've nobody to share my problems with.

And then you be like "ehhhh saya ada ni kt sini" sambil lambai sengih sengih kt screen.

But then..... you're the one who left.

9.49 pm

That feeling when your mind keep playing memories that hurt your heart.

I just cannot. I'm not that strong like what people expect me to be. I just........... cannot :(

It's not that easy to delete your feelings to someone that gave you so much things to remember.

6.36 pm

It's hurt to see you're happier without me
It's hurt to see you've moved on

Kau tipu aku guna air mata murahan kau. Tahniah.

Maka, aku tekad;
aku akan buktikan aku boleh hidup tanpa kau. Jangan cari aku lagi. Mungkin nama dia dan aku sama, tapi kau takkan jumpa aku dalam diri dia. Semoga kau bahagia. Dan aku turut bahagia dgn dunia aku.

8.52 am

Untuk pertama kalinya, air mata kau jatuh di hadapan aku. Susah untuk aku percaya kau sekarang. Kau selalu bilang, kau menyesal pergi dulu. Tapi, apa yg aku dengar cerita pasal kau tu sememangnya dusta belaka?

Walau apa pun, terima kasih untuk semalam. Sekurang-kurangnya kau ukirkan senyuman buat aku sebelum aku tidur. Kan?